Change...

Isn't there something magical about change. isn't it amazing that who you are today do sent have to be who you are tomorrow. How awesome the motivation is in change, i can see a very clear 'push' i will say from the Heavens when change is necessary to thrive. I am sure there are very clear dare i say destinations for certain people. though as a belief i do not believe in being predestine i think there are some people that the Lord puts in place to enact change. growing up i wanted so badly to be the one called to enact change. and by change i mean build orphanages and take in homeless unloved children. my dream at large is a rehab center ( not drug related) , i truly believe that sometimes people need a small path in front of them cleared so that they can see the the path in the distance. but today i feel no change made by these hands, no life altered no larger calling fulfilled. at some point in my life the wild call of the business jungle caught my ear and since has held me captive. I have learned to feel 'change' by the well worn tips of a tall # 2 pencil or a sufficiently confused excel spreadsheet. this life has sufficiently taken my time and i must say all of my talents for to long. there is often a battle of wills at evenings end that brings a laundry basket to riot against a laptop equipped with the latest technology to zoom me directly into a computer that it self should be sleeping for the evening.Neither win..there is no victory int he end, both suffer but none the victor.